SEARCHING FOR HER IN THE SANDS OF TIME

Me ♥- - - - - - - - - ♥ You

Just imagining her touch, dreaming of the days when I could feel her beside me, my mind was in heaven. I have fallen in love with every little thing about her, in fact every single thing about her— Her beautiful eyes, Her rightly placed teeth, Her sensuousness, Her romance, Her dominance, Her scolding, Her fights, Her help, Her support. I could see Her never-ending love in everything she did. I can never forget anything about her; actually, I will never be able to forget...

With her lips, that whisper “I love you Meuuuuuuuuuuuu…” always took me to another world— full of love, care, contentment and passion. Ah! It was one of the best feelings of life to be loved by someone selflessly. I felt so lucky and blessed whenever I thought about her and her love; actually I used to land in the world of amusement that someone could love me too and that too so dearly…

Reminiscing of the mornings I would wake up with her calls, “Muaaaaah Muaaaah, Good morning Meuuuuuuuu…” With closed eyes (which waited silently to see her name on the screen and my ears that waited only to listen to her voice). With the whisper, “Come into my arms,” I found myself wrapped up warm and tight in her arms.

As luck would have it, things drastically altered from this end♥- - - - - - - to that♥! Life took a 360 degree turn and I was face to face with the harsh world. Her love shield had disappeared. From ecstasies I had landed up directly in the agonies of life. I felt pain in my heart that used to bleed in distress but there were no marks. I was the victim who was awarded the punishment of loneliness without a gaffe. There was no one to help me, to see my wounds with naked eyes, to listen to me, to talk to me; I was all alone in crowd.

With my angel in my life I was the hero of my dreamland, living happily. Today, that dreamland no longer exists; I feel nothing. All I feel is the pain from her absence and a constant longing for my love that drives me insane. A constant loneliness that never subsides. I keep thinking about the next time she would talk to me, take me to her arms, which seems like an eternity away.

I remember how she used to keep me cozy in her arms, nowadays, just my pillow is in my arms, and the lifeless quilt on my bed is keeping my warm. I feel the emptiness in my palms without the touch of her hand, and my heart is empty without her to love me.

I stay mum all day long, my mind keeps boiling of frustration, and all I think about is the next time I will be able to talk to her or to meet her. I'm trying to stay strong, trying to console myself that it’s just a phase that will pass, and she’ll be back to love me again…

Memories and the sound (This one is just for U… Reallllllllyyy) of her voice are the only things that are somehow keeping my heart beating. I am hungry for her calls, for even a simple glance of her name on the screen of my phone…

Thinking of the next time she’ll wrap her arms around me and whisper, “Meuuuuuuuuu… I love you Baby and I missed you a lot” into my ear. Heartbroken, I silently ask this question to myself, "will she really come back?" Will I be able to hug her to express how much I've missed her, how much I've yearned for her? There are mere questions, and no one to answer, because only two persons have got the answers to all my questions either the Almighty or...!

Just waiting for a simple deed by her that would be enough to make me fall to my knees and yell out, “I Still love you baby, I still do...”